Everything was business as usual. We're in the middle of wrapping up some work for a pretty big client, so everyone was all over the place, frantically getting everything ready for our presentation tomorrow. Lunch time rolls around, and just like any other office, we do mass orders, where we all order from one place, then someone runs out and gets it all. I volunteered myself to be the one to pick it up today since I had all my work ready to go. Kayla was free too, so she went with me.
We decided we would just get a few pizzas since no one really had time to eat or order anything else. Kayla and I get to the pizza place a few minutes early, so we wait in my car for the pizzas to be ready. We start talking about the other night when we went out to dinner together. I tell her I had a great time, we should do it again, blah blah blah. She says it was lovely, we'll get together soon, blah blah blah.
That's where I made the biggest mistake of my life. I kissed her.
I don't know what the fuck I was thinking. Why would I do that? It wasn't just a quick kiss, either. We made out. Something happened and I just got lost in the moment and just had to go for it. It was great, but I should have never done that. I feel so bad for Taylor. I told Kayla that I was sorry and I don't know what came over me. She was really cool about it, saying it's okay and not to worry about it and that she won't think anything of it. I hope she was serious. I can't lead this girl on like that. I probably shouldn't even see her again. If I did see her again, she may think that I am in to her when I'm not. But I am, just not anywhere near as much as Taylor.
I'm so confused right now. I'm not even really confused, I just...yes, I am confused. I love Taylor. I am not leaving her. I would never leave her. But I can't tell her about this either. And Kayla, she's a great girl, but I can't see me and her together.
I don't know what to do. Should I tell Taylor? I know I can't see Kayla again, and I'm not going to. I'm just scared that if I tell Taylor, she'll leave me.
Oh God, I hate myself so much right now. What do I do?
<3 Sarah <3
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