I started packing for NY today. I have many days left, well, not many days, but a few days left before I really need to start packing, but I am so excited about it that I just couldn't bear it and started to pack anyways.I remember reading another blog, I can't remember which one, but the girl was talking about cleaning out her closet. Oh, it was Clever Girl Goes Blog. So yeah, I was going through my closets and packing some clothes and realized I had so much crap that I don't even wear anymore. It's so hard to part with such cute clothes that you love so much, but why keep something I can't even fit in to anymore? I don't want reminders of how skinny I used to be staring me in the face every day. That was a little over-dramatic since I'm not over-weight, but you get what I mean.
I'm going to donate all of the clothes. I would feel like a bitch if I didn't. It was sad putting the clothes in the bags. But there is one very bright and shiny side to all of this...
BUYING NEW CLOTHES!
Before I leave for NY, I am totally going to go shopping. I get paid tomorrow, big bonus added on, so I will be spending a better portion of the afternoon and evening in the mall with a big grin stretched across my face. I can not wait. I am going to look so good in NY.
On another note, I spoke to the lawyer handling the adoption agency scandal. He says I don't really have a case since we can't prove that the women said what they said. It's no big deal to me, but he did say that he spoke to the board that oversees the agency, and they said they will assure that I am treated fairly if I decide to come back.
That's huge.
I'm not sure if I want to now, though. Knowing that I possibly can have a kid now scares me. Am I really ready? Actually, I know I'm not ready this very minute, but a few months or a year from now, I will be. I also have to be sure Taylor wants this. With or without her, I am doing it, but I can't do it with her if she doesn't want it. I'm pretty sure she does want it eventually, but I have no idea how long 'eventually' is. Hopefully with-in a year.
I'm also considering insemination. I swear I was meant to be a mother because I am craving carrying a child. I imagine it would be so wonderful. I really think that is the route I will go rather than adoption. Maybe for a second child I will adopt. I do want 2 kids. I just have to make sure I find the right sperm donor. He has to be extremely good looking. I know that is very shallow, but I don't care. I want a gorgeous baby. I will check every inch of this man's life to make sure he has great genes and all that. This is important to me.
I have baby fever!
<3 Sarah <3
2 french kisses:.